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I decided I was ready for the world to read about my struggles. Please feel free to leave as many supporting comments as you like. Any comments I feel are too critical and not positive will be deleted. I thank you for visiting, but, please, keep your judgements about me to yourself.

All of you that are having the same struggles as I am, I pray for you in Facing Your Giant.



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Friday, June 26, 2009

Typical

As you can see from the missed postings, I have fallen of the proverbial wagon - again!

Last week we were on vacation, and as good as my intentions were, I quit my workout. Thought I would start up again this week but have not! I have eaten everything I could get my hands on and have just been a real loser all week.

I have made a promise to myself that I will start working out again on Monday! I have to. Last week was not so bad because we were doing so much walking, swimming and beach combing that I was still getting some semblance of a workout, just not as intense as shredding. This week I have no excuse other than just being plane lazy.

I am also going to try to get on some type of better eating program. With all the fresh fruits and veggies this time of year I really have no excuse not to. And I realize it is not just me I am hurting. I have let Mattie May eat just about whatever she wanted this week. That is really bad when I start teaching my granddaughter such horrible eating habits!

So pray for me that I get back to changing. It is not just about me any more!

Thursday, June 11, 2009

Still Here

Yes I am still here, and yes I am working out. Although last week and the first of this week was not good. I missed several days last week and early this week. I woke up yesterday determined that I was not going to stop and I got to moving. Even though I could tell I was a bit winded, I still made it through the entire DVD. And I am going to keep at it!

I also quit my food diary. That is a bad decision, I know. It just depresses me so to not be losing any weight. I need to check my measurements to see if there is any change there even though I haven't noticed any change in the way my clothes fit. I may not pick that diary back up just yet, but I am trying really hard to make a conscious decision on eating better.

We leave on vacation next week, and my goal, other than having a wonderful time, is to workout every morning and to pay attention to what I eat. Working out will not be a problem, I have learned that having my portable DVD player with the workout in it and having the TV on the news actually helps me make it through the workout. Again the eating better part will be the hardest part. Not just making right decisions, but we are going several places we have never been before and I am really not sure what the food choices will be. But I promise myself, I will do the best I can.

Knees are still hurting and it is now in my left knee as well as my right. When I go to the orthopedist after vacation, I will have him check out both. Until then, I will try and just ignore the pain and enjoy my trip. Luckily, we won't be climbing any mountains!

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

Failed Victory

Well - I try to make Sunday my off day for my workout, which I did this past Sunday.

Mondays, I get to sleep in a bit because Frank doesn't have to be at work as early as the other days. But I seemed to sleep in a little to much this past Monday. I didn't get my workout in before work and I had Mattie May that night so no workout that day either.

Tuesday, I slept to late too. Man I have got to quit doing that!! I planned on doing my workout just as soon as I got in from work. But one to many phone calls and Mattie May and Katie got here before I got it done so no workout again. Yikes!

Three days with no workout. Not good!

This morning I was determined to get up and get it done. And I did! I could tell a little difference in my breathing but I think it was actually good to let my knees rest a few days. Oh, don't get me wrong here. They still hurt like the dickens.

I have been wondering if I was going to try to continue while we are on vacation and after this morning, the answer is yes! I used the portable DVD player and worked out in the front room and it was just fine. Actually it was better. I did a little double tasking. I kept the TV on with the local morning news and had my DVD just loud enough to know what I should be doing. It seemed to go a little faster and I didn't concentrate on my aches and pains so much.

So sometimes maybe a little failure makes us try harder. Off to church and early to bed tonight so I will be ready to hit the floor running again in the morning.

Monday, June 1, 2009

No, No, No, and No

No - I didn't record what I ate this weekend.

No - I didn't do my workout on Sunday and Monday.

No - I didn't eat healthy for the past three days.

AND...

No - I don't feel bad at all! Especially after playing outside with Mattie May for a couple of hours and not getting tired or winded! We played and played! It was great. I pushed her in her swing for about an hour (while we made up a new game) and never got tired! It was amazing. A month ago, I wouldn't have been able to do that for 60 seconds much less 60 minutes!

Back on track in the morning!

To all my buddies on the shred or just starting - hang in there! Small victories are as important as big ones!

Friday, May 29, 2009

Yeah! It's Friday!

I have never understood why a four day week takes longer to get through than a five day week does. But this has been a long week. Not hard just long.

I managed to get up and workout this morning as much as I really did not want to. I should be getting close to my 30 days, I just haven't taken the time to go back and check. I am just glad I am still doing it. I am not seeing progress but I am feeling it. I keep telling myself that is what is important.

Also, I have decided I need to move on to level two even if I am not seeing the results others have. I just worry about my knee. I think I am just going to try it and if I can't do it, I will either go back to one or try three (I've heard that one is easier than two).

About my knee, I finally get an appointment with an orthopedist June 29. Isn't that crazy? How can they possibly be booked that far ahead? I hope it does OK during vacation because I know we will be doing a lot of walking. I guess I'll see!

Have a great weekend. Hope you have something fun planned.

Thursday, May 28, 2009

My Body Does Not Want to Cooperate!

I got up this morning at 5:00 AM to do my workout, and I did it. But for some reason, it felt like I was just on day two or three! I was very winded and my body just did not want to move. It was very strange. I did have one more Diet Coke than usual yesterday, but I wouldn't think that would make that big of a difference. Oh well, I will see what happens in the morning.

I am thinking about trying something new. I have a friend that has lost 12 pounds since May 12 on Trimblast. I have been hearing the ads for it every morning on the radio. She says it is great. Her husband has lost 7 pounds. Have any of you ever heard of this? Did you try it? What did you think? In the past when I have tried stuff like that, I didn't add any exercise. I am thinking since I have been exercising for almost a month this might help speed up some weight loss. I really am enjoying the workout and I don't plan on stopping any time soon.

Have a great day! And Keep Working Out!

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Yesterday Slipped By

I missed posting yesterday. I don't know how. I woke up, did my workout, came to work and all was pretty much the same as every other day.

I am really going to start making a VERY conscious effort to start eating better! I did not lose any more this week. I did miss two workouts, but on Monday I did go walk around the zoo. With that and all the laundry and cooking I did, that adds up some, but not enough. Today is probably not the best day to pay attention to calories but I am! We are having a pizza party for all the people who graduated from college this year. I can eat pizza, just a few slices, not an entire one by myself!

I know part of my problem is making myself eat slower. I am also going to start making a more conscious effort to do that to. I know I can do it! I have started working out and not stopped, so I know I can eat better too! I just think that is harder than exercising! There is so much good food out there!!!!!

But today is the day and I am going to do it!!!!

Monday, May 25, 2009

Good Morning & Happy Memorial Day

First off, I want to say thank you to all veterans and active service men and women. That is what this day is for. If not for your sacrifices, my family would not enjoy so many of the things we do. This will be the first time in 20 years that I am not able to go hug my neighbors neck. He was a POW in Germany for quite some time. He never liked to talk about it, but one year he graciously sat down and talked to Katie for a school project. He and his wife have recently moved to a retirement home due to their health.

For a long weekend, it sure is going by fast. Saturday and Sunday we spent the day in Breckenridge pre-fishing and fishing a tournament. Saturday I did get up and do my workout and even though I did come in below my calorie count for the day, the food choices I made at night were not actually in my best interest. And I also had a drink, a margarita. It was really good but I only had one and drank water the rest of the night.

Sunday, no workout. No way to watch the DVD in the hotel room and I really didn't want to get down on that floor to do some of the workout. I know those are excuses, but I also didn't want to catch something that would make me be down for a few days. I know I get some exercise on the boat, just for all the moving around we do and the balancing we do in the waves trying not to fall off the boat. But that is still not the exercises I need.

I have not recorded my food for Sunday either. I probably came in under my count due only to the fact that we don't eat much when we are on the boat. But that doesn't mean my food choices were good. The lake was pretty choppy because of all the weekend boaters and jet skis and I think that is why I was so sore this morning. I also jumped off the boat onto the ramp to go get the pickup and, up until then, my knees were feeling pretty good. I think that's why I wasn't thinking and did that. Well, they are both pretty sore this morning. I know that is just another excuse.

So because of my knees and my body being so sore, I didn't do my workout this morning either. I know, more excuses. I am paying attention to what I am eating. I had my eggs and toast this morning and it is almost time for lunch. I will eat something good. I have been doing some house work which is exercise too, but not enough. If I can get everyone out of the house, I may try to do some Pilate's after while. I think we are going to the zoo this afternoon so I will get quite a bit of walking in .

Enjoy you holiday, and watch what you eat at all those bar-b-ques!

Friday, May 22, 2009

It Started Out Slow...

But this week has just flown by!

I did well this week. Every morning I did my workout, I lost a pound and I have been more conscious of my eating. That doesn't mean I am eating great, just getting better at the choices I make. For instance, last night I chose grilled chicken w/rice, green beans and okra instead of chicken fried steak with double mashed potatoes and gravy. I still had my roll and I had sweet tea instead of sweetening my own. But still some better choices there. And that is what it is about, making better choices more often.

This looks to be a busy three day weekend. I have planned out what I want to do, but as usual those plans are up for change. I think I will be home by myself on Monday and want to get some sewing and scraping done.

Have a blessed weekend.

Thursday, May 21, 2009

Up and At "Em

Didn't sleep in this morning. Learned my lesson yesterday.

Did my workout. Mattie May is with us for the rest of the week so I will definitely be getting to bed earlier. Since I have been getting up early to work out, it seems much easier to get her up and going to. And if I lay down with her, she goes to sleep faster. But I usually fall asleep too! Oh well! If I stay asleep it is OK, but if I don't it is hard for me to get back to sleep because of my "little nap".

We eat earlier when she is with us too. And that's always a good thing.

No weighing today or measuring so not much to write. I am just hanging in there.

I did get the report back about my knee. Bruising of the bone and softening of the cartilage. I will have an appointment with an orthopedist eventually, but we all know how that goes! It felt a little better when I started my workout this morning but it did start hurting and has gotten worse as the day has gone on. Maybe some day it will be better. I am not going to change my routine until the doctor tells me I should or until I just can't walk any more, which ever comes first.

Until tomorrow.

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Rush, Rush, Rush!

Oh, why did I choose to sleep in? I have gotten so used to being up and ready. But we didn't get in last night until 12:30, so I guess I should say we got in this morning. It was a fun night even though the boys lost the baseball game. We all seem to be in such a rush these days, it was nice to get to visit with friends.

However, this morning I chose to sleep until 6:15, get Frank's lunch made, then do my workout. Yes, I still worked out! Yes, I am still seeing progress in that work out. My stamina is getting better, I can still see improvement in my strength, and even though I haven't taken any new measurements (I am doing that on a monthly basis) I can feel a difference in my stomach. I don't know if it is inches because I really haven't noticed a change in my clothes, but I have noticed I am holding it in better so I believe it is a change in my ab strength. And I do feel better about me and what I am doing. I definitely struggle with food choices, but I am noticing I am not eating as much.

So I am marking all this up for improvement and change for the positive. And Frank is sticking right there beside me, encouraging me all the way!

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

One Pound Down!!!

Woo Hoo! I finally lost one pound! Yeah! And I hope to never see that pound again!!!! It has been a hard struggle just to loose that one, but I did it!

Still working on Level 1 of the 30 Day Shred! I just don't feel comfortable moving forward because I have a hard time completing this level without dieing! I am not in a hurry. Like I have said before, I didn't get in the shape overnight, and I won't get better overnight. I can tell a difference in my arms and abs but the only difference I can tell in my knees is more pain. I hope the doctor calls me soon. If I don't hear from him today, I think I will give him a call tomorrow.

So progress is being made in exercise and now in weight loss! Yippee! I will check in again tomorrow!

Monday, May 18, 2009

Another Weekend Come and Gone

Just why do these weekends go by so fast?

Saturday, we slept in, but once I woke up I was up and working out. I decided to go back to the shred. I just feel better (except for the knee) when I do this one. After that it was Frank, Mattie May and I to do some shopping. Mattie May and I had a late nap and enjoyed a rainy afternoon.

Sunday, I did oversleep and did not have time for my workout. I actually missed it! But I think it was good rest for my knee. Didn't eat very well! It was my Granny's 86th birthday and we made our own little party. Mattie B, Katie, Buddy, Mattie May and I went over and enjoyed lunch and cake with her. Mattie B furnished lunch and Katie furnished the cake. Then Frank and I had Grandy's for supper and that just wasn't very healthy!

I did come under my weekly calorie count but I really need to concentrate on eating better. I know that would help with my weight loss! That is just really the hardest part of it all! I really plan on doing better this week.

I am hoping to hear from the doctor today with results from my MRI. I would really like to find out what is wrong and what I need to do to treat it. I am trying to wear flats more often. Not that I wear high heals, but just a little lower seems to help. I could wear tennis shoes every day and feel much better but I don't really want to wear jeans to work except on Fridays.

So I still feel like I am on track other than eating. But that I will work on this week!

Friday, May 15, 2009

Ugh!!

I finally succumbed to the pain! I just could not shred this morning. My knee is really not in good shape and common sense finally took over and said "Don't Make It Any Worse!" Actually I think that was my daughter, not my common sense.

But I have stuck so well to the getting up and exercising routine, I didn't want to loose that. So I turned on one of the Pilate's shows I recorded. It takes an hour to work through and, I must say, tougher than I thought. Oh, but the relief to my knee! I may try to alternate days of shred and Pilate's just until they tell me something about my knee.

Another great thing about the Pilate's is I burned more calories than with the shred!!! That really surprised me. But according to my calorie burner calculator, it did.

I have also decided to really start concentrating on food. After two weeks of no loss what so ever, it is something I must do.

So even though I had a bit of a disappointing morning, I am still getting up and moving and that is so much better than what I was doing!

I may not be around for the weekend, I am going to try to stay busy and off the computer. That was TRY. God bless!

Thursday, May 14, 2009

Still No Loss

I remembered to weigh today and still no loss.

I am working out every morning and feeling good about it for the most part. I really struggle with the aerobics portion because there is so much strain put on my knee. I have really had to adapt to keep from really just not being able to walk on it at all. They got my MRI done today and I should hear from the doctor tomorrow or Monday. Maybe then I can decide what course of action I need to take. Until then I will keep struggling through this workout.

I have been recording some Pilate's show so if I need to change the type of exercises I am doing, I can without missing a workout. The only draw back to the Pilate's is it is for one hour. Ugh! I don't think I would have to get up any earlier, I just wouldn't have as much time to get a few chores done like I do now. But I have heard Pilate's is good and from what I have read and seen there is not near the strain put on the joints. But until I hear from the doctor, or just flat fall over from the pain in my knee, I will continue the route I am on.

I did almost quit this morning. I put one weight down, and as I was reaching to put the other down, I had a little conversation with myself and told me to keep going and I did!!! Yeah me! Another small victory!!!

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

I Forgot

Got up this morning at 5 and did my workout. Oh my goodness! What pain! I so hope the doctor's office will call today with a schedule for my MRI. This pain is getting worse and it is starting to hurt even when I am sitting still. Last night I had cramps in my knee. I have had cramps in my shins and thighs before but never just in my knee. I don't want to stop working out! I feel if I can make it through the month just getting up and working out that I will make it a habit and will continue to do it.

I can really tell a difference in my arms and abs. I am sure if my knee didn't hurt so bad I would feel a change in my legs too. I still get winded really quick but I can tell a difference there too.

This morning I should have weighed, but I forgot. I remembered when I was in the shower, but by the time I finished I forgot again. I don't like to weigh in at the end of the day, so I will try to remember to in the morning. I think I forgot because I am trying to focus and getting some muscle strength and stamina built up, then I will focus on weight. Don't get me wrong, the weight loss is important, but I have always focused on that first and not the exercise. This time I am focusing on the exercise first. I want to make that a positive change for the rest of my life! And I will get there!

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Long Day

I was up and shredding this morning, didn't have anything to make breakfast so I went to Sonic and got a Jr Breakfast Burrito and I have paid for it all day!!! Not that it takes up that many calories, but it has just stayed with me all day. And I had a coke which I said I wasn't going to do. So none for me tonight.

Did pretty well at lunch, but I must, must go to the grocery store tonight so I will have good food!

The Biggest Looser finale is tonight. Not sure who I want to win. They are all winners, or actually in this case loser's and I wish them all well. I haven't watched the entire season so there is really no one I would like to see win more than the other.

Tomorrow is weigh in for me. Will I see a change? Who knows. But if I don't, I am still not going to get discouraged. I have really not missed a day since I started good and that is accomplishment! Even though I am still on Level 1 , I can see such a difference. My strength is better, I can do both sets of push-ups. My abs, still hidden under layers of fat, are getting stronger, I can do all the crunches. My stamina is better, even though I have to be careful on the aerobics and my knee is in a constant swollen state, I am not getting as winded. I truly believe if I didn't have to stop because of my knee, I could at least keep up with those skinny minnies on the DVD!

And speaking of those three, has anyone noticed that Natalie is a cheater? Doing the first set of static lunges when Jillian is walking over to Anita, watch Natalie. She stops doing her legs and just moves her arms! I couldn't believe the editors didn't catch that!

Oh well. I am trying my best to keep up and will continue to work at it. I really don't think I will lose 20 pounds in 30 days and I don't think I will be moving from level one anytime soon. But I am moving and improving and that is what is important to me right now!

I will go on!!!

Monday, May 11, 2009

Fast and Furious

That was this weekend!

Saturday, got up and did my workout. Then the rest of the day was spent with Mattie May. We worked in the garden and in the kitchen. She had a mother's day flower project we had to finish, then flowers to plant in the garden and she fixed a cake for Mother's day lunch on Sunday. We actually didn't get the garden finished. I finished that after Katie picked her up. Lots of moving! Bending, stooping, digging - there is lots to do in the garden and I love it! Frank and I enjoyed a few hours sitting on our bench that evening and it was nice. We rarely get to do that!

Sunday, up bright and early to workout, then get ready for church. Since it was Mother's day, everyone was required to be at my mom's for lunch. This and Christmas Eve are requirements. You don't miss, period! It was a great day! The weather cooperated and was cool for most of the day.

I did not keep track of my food on Saturday or Sunday. Saturday, just because I was too busy. I think I did OK. I really didn't eat that much. Sunday - totally different story. I had lots of food for lunch. But I really didn't snack. I had a little pink salad and some cheese for supper because I had so much lunch. I also did lots of cleaning for Mom. She is getting better, but still tires easily, so I told her to just leave the clean up to me. Traci did a lot and I finished up when she left. Then took Mattie B home and put up all her stuff. So even though I know I ate to much, I actually moved a lot!

So the week begins! I really didn't want to get up this morning, but I did. I think it was a food hangover! Did my workout, had breakfast and off to work. It will be a great week!

Friday, May 8, 2009

Short and Sweet

I got to sleep in this morning! Yeah! Instead of 5AM I got up at 5:30AM and got busy. I did my workout even though I really didn't want to. For some reason, this was the first day my body said "please don't do this!", but I did it any way and am so glad I did! I felt better when I was finished.

I got my shower and started getting ready for work. There weren't any dishes to do and no laundry (yes it is Friday and laundry is done!) so as I was getting ready and eating breakfast, I enjoyed catching up on my soap! Nothing like starting out your day with all the wonderful stuff a soap opera has to offer!

So I am still hanging in there, getting my exercise and trying my hardest to eat better. That eating better part is harder than the exercising part! We have a busy weekend planned and I can't decide if I will be turning on the computer. So just in case I don't ~ I hope everyone has a blessed Mother's day!

Until next time!

Thursday, May 7, 2009

Feel Good

This has been a very good morning. It was a little hard to get out of bed at 5AM this morning, but I did. It's my own fault. I didn't go to bed as early as I should have, but that is the first time since I started my workout that I failed to do that!

Did my workout, started a load of laundry, showered, fixed Frank's lunch, got ready for work, fixed breakfast, finished laundry, put breakfast dishes in dishwasher!

WOW! I have never been a morning person, but making myself get up and start with a workout has been great on me! So even if I am not seeing a change at the scales, I am in other areas of my life, with the most important one being getting up and working out.

It is going to be a wonderful day! Supposed to be record breaking heat! So keep cool and drink lots of water. And no matter what - have a great day! Today is the only today you have!