WOW!

Here it is, two o'clock in the morining and I just had the revelation that I did no posting today. Yikes! I don't really even remember what all I ate! I do know I had one piece of birthday cake at Makaley's party tonight and that Mattie May did not go to sleep until 12:30! Maybe I can go get a little sleep and remember what I ate and get the points figured. It was so hectic at work today, I didn't even think about food! (I really can't believe I just said that!)

Yes, It Was Worth Every Point

I fixed cinnamon rolls this morning. OH, I know I should have had the egg I have been wanting all week, but it was so good and warm too. It was a cool morning for us, in the low 50's, so I turned on the oven to take the chill out of the house. I just can't stand to turn on the oven and not have anything in it, so I cooked Mattie May's cinnamon rolls she put in her little cart at the grocery store last week.

Even though I shouldn't have had it, it was worth all 6 points I had to use to eat it!

Now, I just have to remember portion control and not go home and eat the rest of them before anyone gets home!!!!

SELF CONTROL!

Well Poo!

This wasn't the best of days, but not just terrible until tonight. We both had salad, which was very good, for supper. When we got home from Church, I got into the Frito's! Well, not a good way to end the day, but at least it wasn't a whole roll of frozen cookie dough!


*UPDATE*
Well I just added all my food and even with the Frito's that I should not have had, I was within my daily points. So Yeah! That is a small victory that I am counting!

Trudging along

I haven't posted today and that makes me happy and sad at the same time.

Happy because I haven't felt the need to type instead of eat (except for the cake, more on that in a minute). I have been drinking my water. I still didn't get my egg for breakfast but I will plan on it again in the morning. Mornings are just hectic for me and I can't get it together.

Sad because I have had a rough morning and didn't get my thoughts down. I think if I get these thoughts down, I can track what triggers me to eat when I shouldn't

For breakfast I had another grab and go bar. Today is Mr. Tittle's birthday and I did have a small piece of cake. Lunch was the leftover stew from last night (just as good!) with a Diet Coke.

I don't know what we will be having for supper. Manna and More is serving sloppy Joe's and that didn't sound good to Katie or me. Mattie May was asking for EIEIO's last night, so maybe that is what we will have tonight.

The Day is Done!

Yeah, I have made it to the end! I did have to have a small snack before supper (1 oz of cheese & 1/2bag of 100 Calorie Pecan Sandies) but that wasn't bad.

Katie fixed supper. I have told that girl she has got to learn to fix something other than McDonald's and Taco Bueno. She did a great job. Beef Stew. Not from scratch, but one of those dump the can things. But, hey, I didn't have to lift a finger! Thanks Katie.

Even though it it threw me into my weekly points, we added a few Frito's into it for some crunch. I had (most) all of my water and only two Diet Cokes. I had gotten really bad about only drinking DC.

So no to sleep so I can start fresh in the morning. If my day goes as well tomorrow as it did today, it will be another victorious day.

God Bless

Making it!

It is after 3 and I have made it without a snack. I did, however, have a Diet Coke. I am getting a headcake (as per Mattie May) and I am actually hungry. After I finish my DC, I will drink more water. That should help with the hunger pains. Just not sure what to do about the headcake. I did take some Excedrin hoping that will help so we will see.

Past Lunch

Yeah, I made it to lunch with no snack! I had my water (3 cups) and a small lunch (2 wieners & 2 oz of cheese). Not much and I will probably add some carbs here in just a minute. But so far so good. My biggest hurdle is making it to lunch without a snack.

OK, well, I broke down and added some Progresso soup to my lunch meal (2 points). I was still a little hungry. I thought this would be better than some chips of chocolate!

Now, I have to make it to supper without a snack. Thank goodness we try to eat around 6!

Keeping Track

I am keeping track of my points on WW's web site, but I decided I MUST make myself accountable for everything I eat. There will be some short post and I apologize for that. But after all, I am keeping this blog for me!

I have already had 1 of my waters this morning and working on the next. I did not get my egg I had hoped for for breakfast. I had to opt for a grab and go breakfast bar. Two points. I am starting to want something to eat, but I know I can wait for lunch. I HAVE THE POWER TO WAIT FOR LUNCH.

The Story of My Life!

It seems that the consistent story of my adult life has been, I have got to get this weight off! So here I am again!

First of all, thanks to all of you that have continued to check in on me and leave sweet, encouraging remarks. Please keep it up! I always need the support.

I am going to try this again. I am going to try to count those points starting in the morning! I CAN DO THIS! I WILL DO THIS!

I want to do it for Frank, Katie and Mattie May. But I have to do it for me, for my body. I know I am killing myself with all this extra weight. Just walking in the door tonight, my knee almost gave way. Now there is this huge bump and every time I take a step, there is pain. My heart does not need all this extra fat around it. I want to walk up the stairs at work without getting winded.

And on top of everything else, my mom gave me a real pretty suit last Christmas that I would really like to be able to wear this fall!

So keep checking on me and giving me support. But most importantly, pray for me! I will be praying for me and all of you facing this same giant.

MMMMMMMMM (big sigh)

Well, I still haven't made it back to WW. Sunday we had Mattie May and Monday I had an appointment at the chiropractor (more excuses I know!). I am thinking this Sunday I will be able to go back and get back on track. I would really like to get started back before the holiday weekend coming up. I feel like if I am not actually weighing in, there is no reason to eat right. That is not a good example for Katie or Mattie May! I have got to get my head on straight, I know. I have got to listen to what is right! Keep praying for me. I know God is talking, I just have to start listening!

OH MY!

It has been almost two months since I have posted here. I don't know, I was struggling, then sick, back problems and vacation. All excuses I know! When I was sick, all I could eat was chicken and rice soup and all I could drink was Sprite. How any person could gain weight on a diet like that is beyond me, but I managed. Then three weeks into the sickness and I get prescribed Prednisone! Yikes! Talk about swelling up. On time I looked in the mirror and declared I looked like Violet! You know, the spoiled little girl on Willie Wonka that chews some gum she is not supposed to and literally swells into a balloon! That was what I saw in the mirror.

Well, I have new inspiration. Not only am I better (about 95%) but Katie wants to start eating better! She has gained a little bit of weight (not much) but has also started a new job that requires her to sit at a computer for eight hours a day. She wants to get on the right track of eating and exercising properly before she falls into a rut like me (she didn't say that but I know what she means). She can do WW for no fees through her job, so starting next week, I am getting back on that track, but this time with a buddy living right under my roof!!!

I will update the weight when I go weigh in which will be on Monday. I know I have gained, but I really have tried! Start praying for me!

I'm Back on Track

It has been three weeks since my last post and three weeks of struggling. I have gained weight and missed one weigh in. But I woke up this morning with a new attitude! I am back on track and no matter what that scale says this afternoon I will not let it get me down. I have eaten nothing today that I should not have! I have the rest of the afternoon to go and I refuse to put anything in my mouth that I shouldn't! I am going to celebrate these tiny little victories because they are great milestones to me! I will be in those capris pants I own before the end of the summer!

:I

When I updated my weight this morning, this is the emoticon i got :| That's it! no frown, no smiley. Just :| A blank stare! OK, maybe I am not doing to great in this weight loss endeavor (+.2 for the week) but a blank stare!!! Give me a break!!!

1.8

Not the greatest but it is still a lost. I was really happy. A pound a week is a good weight loss. I have always done the get it off quick thing, but maybe if I am loosing it slowly, I will be more likely to keep it off. So, I am going to keep shooting for the -1 every week. If it is around that, great, if it is more, even better. I am going out to enjoy Spring.

Everyone have a good week!!!!

Sweet Rolls

My boss brought sweet rolls this morning. Ummm yum! Well, I guess. I have managed to walk by them all day long and not eat a single one! Now, I will admit, I opened the box and breathed in the sweet aroma, but I didn't touch a one! Hopefully I will make it through the next few hours with out one.

I LIke my Doctor's Scales

I went to the doctor this morning and oddly enough I like his scales. They weighed me three poinds lighter than the WW scales. You think maybe I could go there on a weekly basis just to weigh?

A Step Back

So, weigh in didn't go so well yesterday. I gained a pound. Oops! Well I refuse to beat myself up over that. I just have to get back to the same focus I had a month ago. Last week I was not looking at my daily food intake as well as I had been, plus I had a piece of birthday cake one day and a margarita on Friday. I knew when I did both of those things I would have to pay for it. My fault, its done and over with. It is now in my past! I will not forget about it, I will learn from it! Next weeks weigh in will be better, I am sure of it!!!

I Don't Believe This One

Well after a week of not keeping my food log and having some stomach problems, I went to weigh in tonight. 2.4 pounds! I was shocked.

Now I have to spend the week worring that it will catch up to me next week! And I have to make it through Easter lunch.

Keep praying for me. I am trudging along. God is the reason I am making it.

This day was a BUst!

Today was not a good day. I was up sick early this morning and did not get much sleep. I have not felt good all day and have eaten what I wanted and did not keep my food diary. Oh weel, I will see on Monday how I did.

I stink at Math

Well in my previous post I said I was shooting for a 3.6 pound loss to reach my first 10 pounds lost. As you can see by my tracker, I reached a 10 pound loss(yeah me!) but I only lost 2.6 pounds this week. Obviously I can 't do simple math. I thought I needed to loose an extra pound. So even though I didn't reach that weekly loss goal, I did loose my first 10 pounds. I am very excited. (And now I am off to work on my math!)

Monday

Well, I have weigh in today because we were at a fishing tournament yesterday. This was a very busy weekend and I hope I did OK. I was shooting for 3.6 pounds to reach my first 10 pounds, but because of all the traveling we did this weekend, I am not too sure I will reach it. I know a one pound weight loss is good and it is also healthy. I know it is not good to loose to fast but I will just feel better when I reach 10 pounds. I will just have to wait a few more hours to find out. I think I need to work on my patients with Mattie May, Katie and Frank!

I'm Sick

Frank has been coughing for a week and I have been coughing for two days. I got so bad after work that he made me go to the clinic. We both have an upper respiratory infection. We both got shots and medicine. And thank goodness, the coughing has subsided! I have done really well this week and I hope the shot does not make me hungry, sometimes they do that. I won't get to weigh in until Monday because we have a fishing tournament on Sunday. We will hopefully be in Austin on Saturday, but we won't know until about ten tomorrow after the boys finish their game. We hope they win. It would be so neat for both the boys and girls to win state. I wish them luck and hope to see them Saturday and I will see the scales on Monday!

3.4

Yep, that is what I lost, 3.4 pounds for this week. I feel really good but I am going to be very cautious this week. I had two hamburgers on our trip to Austin and I am really afraid they will be catching up to me on my next weight in. Today is great. I am back at work so I am back in my normal routine. Breakfast was my normal bar and had chicken and soup for lunch. I found a new great food today. WW Key Lime Pie nonfat yogurt. OMG, I kept waiting to get a bite of pie crust! It taste so much like Key Lime pie filing, it is unbelievable! I am going to try to find a recipe for graham cracker pie crust that would be better for me (they have so much butter!) and figure out some way to actually make it in a pie! I would really like to loose 3.6 this week and I really hate to put that in writing, but that would put me at the 10 pound mark in three weeks. I know that is a lofty goal but I will not be disappointed if I don't make it!

Nervous

It is Saturday morning, the last day of our trip to Austin. The girls game is at 2:00 this afternoon so we have a pretty long day ahead of us. We are planning on only eating two meals today and I hope that we stay on that plan because I have already used half of my points for today. I am going to try to stay out of my weekly allowance if possible because I have already used half of those. I knew this was going to be a hard week because of the two nights away from home and because of all the eating out. I haven't wanted to tell anyone that I was on WW just because I didn't want them to judge me. People just don't understand that you can eat anything you want and when you stick that chip and salsa in your mouth they look at you like "well, she has already fallen off the wagon." I think nerves have had a lot to do with the extra point intake also. I want those girls to win so bad!

Well, I will see how the day goes and weigh in is tomorrow. I am praying for me to have lost a little!

Austin Texas

So far so good here in Austin. I have managed to stay on program (yeah me)! I did use three of my weekly points yesterday (hamburger and fries) but I felt that was great. Today we ate at the free breakfast buffet and although the bisquits and gravy looked wonderful, I passed them by and ate eggs & sausage. I had a bit of orange juice and a taste of yogurt and even though I didn't eat a full serving, I counted the points. The yogurt was nasty and about half way through the orange juice I thought about the sugar and just couldn't finish it. We are more than halfway through the day and I have more points left than normal so I feel like I am really doing good. We will see at weigh in on Sunday.

We have one more night and most of tomorrow left here and I am feeling good. The girls play for the state championship tomorrow and when they win, I will have CAKE!!!

Bummer

I had a rough day today, not that I had trouble sticking to the program, but that I just can not "fudge" on my points. I went into my weekly allowance points today. I had planned on saving them all for the weekend, but when I was figuring my lunch points I made a mistake. Not a big one, just enough to make myself have to go over on supper. As I started writing everything down, I started to just leave something off and make it look good. How would anyone know? Well, not only would I know, God would too. When I thought about it that way, I joyfully wrote down the correct figures. Next time I will not leave all my information laying on my desk at work and I will get right from the get go.

I guess the victory dessert I was planning on for Saturday will just have to cost me fewer points!

Weigh In #1

I weighed today and LOST 4 pounds. YEAH ME!

It was very crowded and I was there on Monday instead of Sunday, so I won't get to ask my questions until next week. But I am really happy with the loss.

I will keep trying!

I Feel Good

We went to Midland today and watched basketball. Not only did the girls win and will now play in the final four tournament next weekend, but I did very well (I think). I ate off the smart menu at On the Border and didn't even finish the meal. I got full fast. Now, I did count the entire meal at the highest point value that I figured so I hope I did it right.

I had less than a cup of popcorn at the ball game and (with Frank's help) remembered to add the points . Again I figured on a full serving and with the most points value that I could figure.

I will see at weigh in. I will have to wait a day longer than I want to, but we are fishing a tournament tomorrow so I will not make it to the Sunday weigh in. But I feel good about everything.

I will let you know how it goes

1st Night Eating Out - No Problem

Well, I did it. We went to Red Lobster and I did great. I had to change my menu a little from what I had originally intended and I came in at the same point value. And I didn't go into my weekly allowance points. I actually told Frank I felt like I had eaten too much. I wasn't stuffed, but I was a little more than satisfied.

We had a bit of a problem with service and dirty glasses, but other than that we really enjoyed our evening together.

First Dnner Out

It is Friday, eating out day. Frank will want fish today since it is during Lent. So I am going to suggest Red Lobster. I have already checked out to see what I could eat and I think I have a menu that will keep me on my points without going into my weekly allowance.

Grilled Shrimp w/Baked Potato and Salad or Broccoli and I can even have 1 pat of butter and a roll.

I am still trying to hang on to those weekly points because of travel this weekend. Not only are we planning to go to Midland for basketball, but we have decided we are going to fish a tournament on Sunday. So lots of eating out. This is a good meal. We are going to try to go as early as possible so we can beat the crowd. The other advantage to that is I won't be standing there getting hungry.

Since I have already got my water in for the day, I think I will even have an iced tea.

I managed

I was a bit worried about tonight. I was the only one home and that usually has me snacking all night long. I did good. I had tuna and crackers with some veggie soup for supper and them a snack of yogurt. I did want something to eat but I made myself drink water. I wasn't hungry, just bored. That is when I normally eat, when I'm bored.

I did get into my weekly allowance points yesterday but I think it was because I ate at church. I may have taken too many points off but better to take to many as not enough. That is what those weekly points are for.

So yeah for me on my small little victory tonight.

I had another victory in that I past up chocolate twice today. Once at work and tonight at home.

That was a major achievement. I love chocolate.

I still haven't decided on what I will be doing this weekend, but I am sure I will face some obstacles. I am sure I will be using more of those weekly allowance points. But I will try my hardest not to use them all. (small victory)

Day Three

This is day three on WW and so far so good. I like the plan. I have not felt like I have gone off plan for these three days. Small victory.

I am still not getting all my points used on each day and I have yet to get into my Weekly Points Allowance. That I know is a good thing. But this weekend we may be traveling to Midland for Basketball. That will be a test and I would like to have those points available if I need them. I am anxious for weigh in day on Sunday. I hope i do not disappoint myself.

I have a few questions for the meeting. I need to ask about not using my points. Also I am concerned about the fruits & vegetables and the fats. I know I should be getting more fruits and vegies, but the fats have me concerned. I don't add any butter or anything, so I need more guidance on what counts as a fat.

But I still feel good and am hoping to fit in to some capris I have not worn in a couple of years. I still don't know if I am ready to open up this blog for the world to see. I really don't want to be criticized but I know there is also support out there. I will see how I feel after weigh in.

I did It

I started Weight Watchers Sunday, so today was my first day. I didn't use all my points so I am not really sure that is a good thing or bad thing. I guess I will find out at my first weigh in. I am real excited. I have done this program before but it has changed dramatically since I first did it. I hope this time when I reach my goal weight I keep it off forever.

Anyone that has ever struggled with weight loss has that same dream. It is just so hard. I love food. I will pray for the strength to withstand the tempting things I love. I am not just doing this for me but also for my family. I want them to be proud of me and happy with the way I look. I also want to be around for a long time for them. I want to see MM kids!

One step at a time.

The Plan did Change

Well, due to weather and water heaters, I did not get to start WW as planned. Wednesday night when we got home from church and I started to get MM ready for her bath, we had no hot water. Our water heater had gone out. We went to Matt's to take a shower, but Thursday night, Frank and I had to go buy a new water heater and get it put in.

Also, it had started really sleeting hard as I left work and we were not sure what the weather was going to do. Didn't know what the driving conditions would be so I stayed and helped Frank.

This does get me down a little, but the heater had to be done. So I will try again on Sunday or Thursday. Sunday will be hard because MM will be home. I will try to keep my spirits up until I do get to go. THIS HAS TO BE DONE!

My plans have not changed

I still plan on going to my first WW meeting tomorrow. I have not let anything get in the way of that. I will be going to the 5:45 meeting. I hope to have lunch with the girls tomorrow so that Friday morning I will be up at it and nothing will get in my way. I have not told Frank yet of my plans, but I know when I show him on Friday, he will be my support. I don't know, I just feel like if I tell him before I start, something will delay my going and I will feel like I have failed him and me. So when he gets home on Friday, I will include him in my plan.

Well, Here goes...

I have set this blog up for me. I am not quite ready for the world to see my struggles. I am going to start Weight Watchers on Thursday. That is my goal. It seems like ever since I decided that would be my tool to help me with this extra weight that something has come up and I have not yet started. Katie will be working at K's, Frank will be out of town and MM will be with her dad. There are no basketball games, no errands and no good reason for me not to go straight there from work. I have done WW before and had success. It is just hard to stay on the wagon as it may be. I am hoping to also get Katie to keep her room where I can get to my treadmill. That is not my favorite activity but I am hoping it will be a start. I just don't like being out in the cold and I usually have MM with me and don't want her to get sick. Maybe when the weather warms up I will start walking out side.

So, those are my two goals for the week. Let me see if I can keep them and then I will start feeling better about myself.